learn to detach.
a good read that I have been reading once a week since I found this article.
a reminder to self huh.
I want to know the direction my life will head down. I want to understand why God gave me certain people, or why they had to leave. I want to cling to what’s familiar, trace what I know into the lines of my palm. I want to measure the future, calculate the pain, make sense of it before it comes and crashes into me like waves against the shore, leaving me powerless.
But sometimes I spend so much of my life holding onto people and memories that serve me no purpose. Sometimes I spend so much time and energy reminding myself of the way things used to be, how my life was.
But the reality is that sometimes you have to let go of something you loved, sometimes you have to walk away from people that do not benefit or brighten you, sometimes you have to release what you cannot control, and trust that God is bringing you to better.
people comes in your life for a reason, so does his leave. don't trust feeling, don't ever trust your own feeling, as it betrays. illusion. imagination. don't fall into the traps you created by yourself. never. every memory and wound shapes you, strengthens you. the past hurts you, but don't be afraid to create new memories, my dear self.
trust God, wholeheartedly. fearlessly. for He always prepares the best plan for you even before you realize. for He is the one who witnesses your falls and never leaves. for He is the one who mends your broken soul again and again. for He is the one who loves you the most.
hey, I won't ever blame you, as I know the happiness was real. too surreal that I once believed in us. I once prayed for us, and I will still pray for you until the scars are faded completely. as I know this is the greatest blessing that I could ever gift you. I won't need to think about you anymore as I know my heavenly father will take care of you, and no one could have done a better job than Him. and so I can finally walk away from you, and never going back.
well, I still believe in this: if it meant to be, it will be, no matter how long it's gonna take.
for God is good, all the time. and all the time, God is good.
